When i was young , my dad never told me the truth about the world. He only said that if i worked hard, i will do well. Eventually, i grew up and realised that no matter how hard you work, some people will buy their way through with money and then i began to wonder, "Where is the equality? "

No wonder dad was bitter about serving in government. He told me that if i ever joined the service, i must be a scholar; a "white horse" to earn the money i "need". You see, my dad was a 'O' level leaver. He worked his way from a private to a 1st warrant officer, and thanks to the new system, converted to MDES 3 (a new rank for technical experts in the SAF). You have no idea how sucky that was; the feeling of losing your rank after 30 years, just to be lower than a fresh graduate who enters the Air Force as MDES 4.

After we talked that night, i began to seriously think about what i should really do in the future. I don't really have a clue, i just know that i want to be like my dad. I want to defend Singapore(sounds so national day sia...zzz) and wear a uniform so that my family will be proud of me. As you know, i can't stand my YJC uniform, makes me feel like a retard.

I don't like the idea of working in the CBD and wear those formal stuffs. It makes me feel very out of touch you know. Like dressing up so formally just to go to work, sit down in front of a computer and type all day, and go home. What's the point really?

I want to do something imba, something exciting man.

I am not your typical guy that goes after high flying salaries. There is more to life, God didn't make us to do little.

But well, life, is like math. In primary school, you were taught that there will always be a way out; there is always a solution. In secondary school you realised that there can be more than one answer, maybe two, three, or more.Then in JC you saw that not all problems have answers to them. They were either never meant to be solved, or have infinitely many solutions. Interesting analogy huh?

Singapore has the best results in math, but we couldn't apply what we learnt in math into real life. Irony.

haha :D