Today was really an impactful day.

I was really caught by God during service. I can never estimate God's timing. He touched me even before the altar call and tears flowed like a waterfall even before anything started. I can't help but respond and God...simply touched me.

I really want to thank God for this rare opportunity that His spirit touched me so strong. It has been a long time since something as strong as this ever happened. Since 2006-07 I think. It's been a long way, I've walked through much with the Lord and through the hills and valleys. God is forever my Jehoveh Jireh, providing me for everything.

Sometimes I just forget that He is there and became a bad testimony to the others. I really really regret that. I make the same mistakes over and over again. Deeply ashamed, but it's the cycle of life that continues and I will have to try not to make the mistakes again.

And of course the disappointments and unforgiveness I have against different groups of people. I must learn to let go and surrender.

Yes i am a wreck. But it's only by my flaws God's faithfulness will shine and sustain me. I've been relying so much on my own strength these few months. It's time to lean on his strength and not by my understanding.

Of course for some other issues as well, Ben: time to move on. forget about it. just go.


Anyways on lighter stuff. Pastor Yuki signed on my guitar, woots he's the bomb man, you all never see him play and sing on the guitar. He is awesome. We should open a YUKI FANCLUB. He really sounds very good and his playing...speechless. Many levels up man, yet such a humble man, i am so honoured to have him sign on my guitar :DDDDD his handwriting damn cool, got japanese words on my guitar, shiok man.

Kai taught me how to change strings properly. The other day i anyhow. that's why all my pegs got scratched, lol.

Ya anyway sectionals tomorrow. And i got to plan for my june hols to study so that i won't fail blocks. And very much hopefully promote :)